Depression

WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOUR DEPRESSED? iDK KINDA CONFUSED RIGHT NOW. MY LIFE IS SUCH A BLURRR IDK WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE AND IM JUST WASTING AWAY HERE DOING NOTHING STILL AT HOME WITH MY MOM AND NOT IN SCHOOL. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME I JUST NEED THAT PUSH AND SOMEONE TO BE BY MY SIDE. IM TIRED OF FEELING LIKE THIS AND I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. MY FATHER IS NO FATHER AT ALL ITS SO SAD SOMETIMES JUST BECAUSE I STOPPED PLAYING BASKETBALL HE HAS HAD SOMETHING AGAINST ME EVER SINCE I STOPPED PLAYING BUT ITS KOO. BASKETBALL ISNT FOR ME AND APPARENTLY OUR FATHER DAUGHTER RELATIONSHIP ISNT MEANT TO BE. I DONT CARE BECAUSE THIS IS MY LIFE YOU ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE TO LIVE AND IM GOING TO LIVE MINE HOW I WANT TO I DONT CARE WHAT ANYBODY ELSE THINKS SO DONT JUDGE ME MAYBE YOU SHOULD JUDGE YOURSELF. IM NOT DEPRESSED ACTUALLY BUT THATS WHAT MY FATHER CALLED ME EVEN THO I SEE HIM ONCE EVERY COUPLE MONTHS AND WE BEARLY TALK ONCE A MONTH HE DOESNT DO ANYTHING FOR ME BUT PLAY MY CELLPHONE BILL. IMA STAND UP AND DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO FOR MYSELF. IM SORRY YOU GUYS HAVE TO READ THIS BUT I JUST HAD TO LET THAT OUT.